„Your Inner Computer“ Series No. 5
© Heidrun Beer 2004
For this article I ask for some patience - its practical consequences in life are potentially huge, but first we must build the theoretical foundation!
In the computer’s world, we distinguish roughly between hardware - that’s all parts of the machine which can be touched -, and software - that’s the programs which constitute the intelligence of the machine. Here we have again two categories: the operating system, that’s software which manages the computer itself and keeps it ready to work, and the application programs, that’s the part of the software which gets handled by the user and assists him in various operations.
Up to here the analogy to the human being is easily recognizable: the body is his hardware, the mind is his software. And of course there is a third, the most important component: the user, who utilizes the combination of hard- and software as a tool to reach his goals, get his work done or entertain himself in his leisure time. In the case of the mind the user would be the spiritual being - in scientologese, the thetan.
While „hardware“ and „software“ are frequently heard terms, there is another term which we don’t hear very often: the term „resources“. Literally translated, that would be supplies, wealth, minerals, but also money and manpower, or generally all values to which a country, a company, a family or an individual have access, which they can exploit, and which they can use to run their household.
Resources in the computer
The most important resource in the computer is its amount of memory. That is chips which have the function of memorizing the exact details of the running programs. With the help of electrical current a virtual space is being built in the memory chips, in which the software programs can unfold their structure and spread out the user data for treatment.
If the user asks it to close, a program must first release the memory for the data which it has processed - before that, they get written to the harddisk in the form of a file -, and finally the memory which it used to keep itself running. This act of releasing the memory, which happens invisibly in the background, is most important. If it is not completed correctly, fragments of the program or its data remain in memory and and unnessecarily use up a lot of space, and after a while, the computer has not enough memory anymore to start new programs or process new data.
Resources in the mind
For us mortals, for a mind to work the first thing necessary is a working brain. The fact that we lose consciousness in accidents and during narcosis, and that effective processing can be done only when sufficient sleep and good nutrition are provided, indicates already that at least as long as we are humans, the physical “hardware” is required for the mind to function. This hardware, the brain, can be compared with the memory chips. Both need electric power - in the computer it is the energy from the power unit, while the brain is supplied with energy by the body’s metabolism (therefore the emphasis on a high quality nutrition).
Stored vs. loaded programs
The resources’ job is to keep the intelligence of the computer ready for use. They offer the software the space which it needs first to manage itself, and second to process user data. Programs which are stored on the harddisk are “folded, dormant intelligence”. Programs which are loaded into memory could be called “unfolded, active intelligence”.
Just like it is impossible to ride a fold-up bicycle without unfolding it first, a software program cannot work before it has been loaded into memory. The fold-up bicycle must be brought into the proper position in space, so that the feet can reach the pedals and the hands can reach the handles. The frame must be straightened, the handlebar must stand in a right angle to the frame, and the wheels must point into the same direction as the road.
The same thing happens with a program which - after it had been stored on the harddisk in a „folded“ form - now gets loaded into memory. It gets unfolded, “mounted”, its user interface is being built up and offered to the user, it is ready to work. And with the programs in the mind it is the same. They too can exist in dormant or active form, “folded” or “unfolded”.
The energy which is used by the mind, can be absorbed by traumatic incidents and is then no longer available for life in its free form. The principle of traditional processing consists of freeing up the life energy which is “frozen” into traumatic incidents, to more or less “thaw” it, so that it flows again and can drive the turbines of life.
But it is not quite as simple, because it is not all about energy alone. Like a virtual space is created in the computer, in which a program can unfold, the same happens in the mind. Depending on its perceptions and the available informations, the mind builds a virtual (mental) space for every life area and for every single function within each of these life areas, in which it can “load” or unfold the previously trained programs - just like we open the fold-up bicycle and get it ready for use.
Of course the spatial circumstances in the brain and in the mind are different from those in the computer. They are also different from those in life. If we want to mount a fold-up bicycle, we move it from one place to another, while in the mind the virtual spaces remain at their original location, wherever that may be.
These virtual spaces get actived right where they are, when they are needed, and they get deactivated afterwards. We also could say, they get “mounted” and “unmounted”. In their mounted form they are unfolded and animated by energy, in their unmounted form they are cut off from the energy supply and are folded in such a way that they have only a fraction of their active size, so that more room remains for the active spaces.
The virtual space is the stage on which the mental sequences for a certain life function are being developed. On these stages, real life gets rehearsed, but even more: real life gets designed and planned through. Before anything new can exist in life, a model of it must have been built on the stage of a virtual space in the mind. From there it is projected into reality and a copy of the mental model is reproduced from physical matter.
We could visualize the mind as a big building in which many such stages are joined in rows and storeys. At any time, some of them are lighted and populated, while it is dark and quiet in others. The lighted and populated stages are equivalent to loaded programs which are “mounted” in the memory of a computer; the dark and empty are equivalent to programs which are stored on a harddisk and which are not needed at the moment. If our whole mind were one holographic projection, the active spaces would be widely expanded and would shimmer in bright light, while between them small and dark sections would indicate the folded, inactive spaces.
As long as these spaces get activated or deactivated with full intention and we stay in control, all is fine. The problems start when we have spaces which are actually in use, but for lack of energy we cannot keep them unfolded, so that they collapse. Alan C. Walter talks of the “collapsed universe” from which some people suffer. But it is not that simple, because a personal universe is built up from many sub-universes. Every life area, every “game” in life is an own universe, each of them has its own space, its own time, its own textbook, its own acting personnel.
It would be easy to handle only one universe. To find the collapsed sub-universes in the middle of the big projection which consists of so many pieces, is a much more difficult task. Also there are two typical patterns of collapse, of which we have learned about only one, while it is often the other one - about which we have not learned anything - which causes the trouble.
To keep it simple, we sum up various types of incidents in the term „trauma“. Of course we know that a traffic accident has a different pattern than the loss of a parent or an unethical deed which causes us feelings of guilt. But they are all traumatic, because too much negative energy is involved. In the virtual building which we just visualized, a trauma acts like a fire which breaks out on a certain stage. An enormous amount of negative energy destroys the space and its content, until it finally collapses - on the e-meter we see the remains of this energy as a needle read.
Our processing education gives us relatively good tools for the repair of such devastation. Although the rebuild of the virtual space is not explicitly mentioned, we do rebuild it by describing the details of the incident. In our recall we mentally scan the space like it was before its destruction, and so we restore its original borders - its wideness, its dimensions, the form it had before it collapsed. Most processing questions are also flexible enough to spot and repair destructions in neighbouring spaces.
Maybe the never released resources from a trauma are the biggest culprit in destroying lives, much more significant than pain or negative energy, which might just act as alarm signals!
The second pattern which can uproot our resources, and about which we have not learned anything, is the challenge - the more daring and extreme, the more: the driver’s examination, the habilitation, moving house, a pregnancy, a new profession, a new relationship, a first ascent, participating in the olympics, and similar things. While we always perceive a trauma as something negative, most challenges are something positive. But nevertheless they can have a negative effect: when they exploit resources which are already in use somewhere else.
If the new challenge is of a limited length - let’s say we do our driver’s license and then the world is like before -, the chaos will be limited too. In the computer we can handle such situations: The operating system gets the message that an additional program is being loaded and needs memory. The user brings it to the foreground, so it gets highest priority and an especially big percentage of the operating system’s “time dial” (which distributes processor time among running programs). The screen display and data processing rate of other programs becomes slower, so that the newly started program gets enough resources.
But if the newly started program requires more resources than are available - or can be made available by other running programs -, some of the running programs hang up. Contrary to the regular closing of a program, where all activities are completed and the resources are cleanly released, a lot of resources get lost during such a program abort.
How the system reacts to such a situation, depends on the total amount of available memory. If there is enough free memory, and if only one program gets aborted in such a way, the error might never get registered. But if memory was already scarce, if the new program or programs need a lot of it, or if more and more such program aborts pile up, the moment of the next program abort can already be the moment where the system grinds to a halt.
Training of patterns
The consequences of lost resources are much more serious in life than in the computer. In the worst case, a computer needs to be restarted to come back to normal performance. But in life, if we jump into the adventure of a Himalaya first ascent and concentrate all our resources only on that, it can easily cost us a marriage!
The loss of a good job, a dear partner, our health or even our life as a price for an adventure which eats up all energy for a shorter or longer time and blocks everything else: that is not necessary. It is a question of planning and training - in the computer world we would say that the operating system must provide a minimum amount of support for the programs which are already running, which means, this must have been installed at some point in time.
Again we realize that in life this is the equivalent of a training pattern on which we should focus sooner or later. Whether we write lists onto paper or manage everything in our head, it can be found to be essential to carefully close “programs” which must not crash, before we start the adventure of writing a book or going on a journey around the whole world.
It is easy to wash all laundry before a journey, or to empty the fridge. To apply for a vacation and find caretakers for indoor plants and pets also goes without saying - but how about the life partner? Have we really done everything to clear away all grudge and all objections, before we go away for a longer time? Has he or she enough support with the children or the house, and are the finances in order? What other important connections could get lost during our absence?
Maybe most vulnerable against interruptions by other challenges are bigger life changes and creative projects. The plan and the ideas for a novel or a symphony, a barely grounded canvas for a painting are equivalent to an article which has been typed into the editing program, but never saved. If the mental resources - time and focussed life energy - suddenly get pulled out of such a project because at the same time we also have to take stock in our business, the project will probably not survive this sudden loss of resources.
Every somewhat trained computer user knows that he needs to save a piece of work before he starts a new one. Even if we can go back to it only an hour later, the entries are lost if we have forgotten to save our text and the start of another ambitious program has crashed the text editor. Every creative person should train a pattern as early in life as possible, how to “save” his unfinished projects and all its notes so reliably that he never wastes an idea or loses track of an important insight. The answer to the question whether a program should be closed down for now or kept in memory, can be of vital importance.
Ambitious life changes are just as vulnerable for such interruptions. How many managers have not gone back to the fitness program they just had gotten used to, after a big tax assessment captured their attention, so that they became victims of the much-feared stress disease? How many mothers have not gone back into their profession after their child or children, because they had abruptly pulled out the life energy from the “virtual space” for their professional activities, and never managed to rebuild the stage for it and to find back into their role, their identity on this stage?
Combinations and chains
Maybe most difficult to digest are situations where a challenge follows a trauma, or vice versa. Such things require a double focus with opposing polarities, an unsual mental effort which can easily fail without sufficient practice.
If somebody loses a leg in an accident, and then needs to adjust his life to walking with an artificial limb, he goes first through a trauma and then through a challenge. Often the trauma gets attention and the resources for the challenge are overlooked. Or we bring a tropical disease back from a voyage of discovery: Here the challenge may have been planned for, but the following trauma uses too many of the already rare resources, and interrupted life programs, which were supposed to re-start after the voyage, get forever sabotaged by the trauma.
One of the most important and frequent combinations is the trauma of a death, followed by the challenge to start a new life in a new body. The collapsed virtual spaces of a past life can - depending on how suddenly it was terminated - contain enormous unfinished projects with their corresponding blocked resources!
Easier to keep in view, but even more exhausting to master, are whole chains of challenges. Somebody who has had a divorce and now has to find, fund and furnish a new apartment in a fast sequence, then must move a houshold, find a new job and that maybe even in a new profession, and - all at the same time - has to get his children used to a new school, will most certainly unvoluntarily let go of some of his most cherished virtual spaces.
Moving to another country with a different language is a similarly ambitious chain of challenges. New language, new administration, new documents, new people, new rules - all that wants to be mastered. If somebody loses only a bonsai tree which he had pampered for the last twenty years in such an upheaval, or loses only his perfect figure but not his health or even the important habit of taking care of his mental health in a session several times a week - he is one lucky man!
Perceiving virtual spaces
People who are mentally very trained or highly evolved, can directly perceive the holographic projection of their mind, which consists of various virtual spaces - some of them widely spanned out and brightly lit, others „folded“, dark and deactivated. These people are bigger than their mind, and so they know all its rooms and halls with lots of activity, as well as its tiny niches, corners and hiding places, where unmounted virtual spaces are stored, which have been active ages ago and might become active again in the future.
They know that they play „manager“ on one stage and „father“ on another, „community board member“ on a third and „loving husband“ on a fourth. They know that they also will rebuild the stage for their beloved “globe circumnavigator” identity one day, where they switched off the spotlights and carefully folded up the virtual space years ago, when marriage and children became a topic and demanded resources. They will dust off their sailboat and polish their technique. They will sail to Hawaii or to the Fiji islands!
Managing the various virtual spaces - the active as well as the passive ones - is less easy, if we are so much smaller than our mind that we are surrounded by it (we are inside), or if we can perceive only active spaces and are not aware of the folded, “unmounted” ones. And if these unmounted spaces block resources which have not been properly released during some overly hasty change, they are even more difficult to perceive, because they are bearing a mental label which denies any access.
Mental labels with the message „I must get away from here“, „There is no time for this“, or - the worst of all - “Not now!” have been formulated too fast and without any expiration date. So they act far beyond the time for which they were intended. Especially “Not now!” can act forever, because no matter when, at a later time, we try to unravel it, the time will be wrong: it is “now” and therefore it is being nullified by the label “Not now!”.
We know such „bouncers“ as part of traumatic mental images (engrams), which are especially difficult to manage for this very reason. But even without any connection with physical or mental pain, they are an enormously important factor in the structure of our mind, because they deny us the access to blocked resources in “crashed programs”.
Such mental labels should not only get dissolved in a session - together with all the negative consequences they had -, it is also important to follow more intelligent rules during their formulation in the future, and to train these rules. There is a world of a difference between the effects of a label on the hometrainer which has the message “not today!”, and a label with the message “not on the 5th September 2003”, or “not with fever!” - although on the original day of formulating it, all three wordings may have been valid.
If the immediate spiritual perception of our virtual spaces is missing altogether, because we can see only physical spaces, we are really in trouble. It requires already great skill from a coach to get the concept of the “unfolding” of a virtual space in mind across to a student at all - and much more to train him systematically to manage it. Without sufficient perception it is a nearly impossible endeavour (although it can be well demonstrated by multi-colored baloons, bound into a bundle, which depending on the imagined activity, are blown up more or less or not at all).
But the virtual spaces, „mounted“ in the mind, are what enables us to manage the spaces in our physical environment, and this gives them superior importance. They are placeholders in the mind, which (should) function analogically to the physical universe. A virtual space with the mental label “Access denied!” keeps us away from the connected physical space more efficiently than nailing up its door with wooden boards!
Virtual spaces in processing
Tracking down collapsed virtual spaces in processing is one of the most difficult things of all. Traumatic memories are overloaded with (negative) energy and therefore “noisy”; collapsed spaces are marked by a typical energy-void, which makes them “silent”: their mental energy has suddenly been pulled out and focussed on something else.
We have good chances if the mental act of „focussing“, or contracting the attention onto a narrow area, can be recalled. This is probably the case if there is a generally good perception of mental activities. The question for mental spaces which have been in use directly before a certain act of focussing, will then produce results. Sometimes there is even a detailed recall of how we directed energy out of one space and into another: then it is a piece of cake.
In case of virtual spaces which have been abandoned only a short time ago, the chances of detecting them are also not bad, especially if we still live in the same environment and the physical spaces can lead us to the mental spaces - although they sometimes make themselves practically invisible by their “Access denied!” label. If we feel upset because we cannot overcome such a label, there is already negative energy (charge), which results from the failed attempt to re-own such a space: Here we get a read on the e-meter (but not if we never tried to act against the label’s directions). As always, we need to pay attention to a possible nesting, that would be spaces within spaces, which don’t necessarily have to behave identically or even similarly to each other.
Another possible approach are memories or paperwork of earlier sessions, where traumatic incidents have been resolved. Here we can ask for preceding or following challenges, which suddenly needed resources and led to an over-hasty abandonment of virtual spaces. <NEW>Unreleased fragments of life programs, which have been crashed by the trauma, are also essential to pull. <NEW>
One possible approach would be a search for location changes and other upheavals in this or a past life. Deaths, even when they happened without any trauma and therefore never have been taken up in processing, are important special versions of such an upheaval. The most possible point in time for the uncontrolled abandonment of virtual spaces is immediately before, or directly during the upheaval (which often turns existing plans upside down).
Making a list of „open cycles“, as recommended by L. Ron Hubbard, is also a useful approach, because open cycles are characteristic indicators for collapsed virtual spaces. Sometimes, ordinary physical tiredness is the reason for abandoning an activity, and/or an upset about the fact that we are not at cause over our energy levels. However, it is not always sufficient to complete such cycles in present time: The thought bridge to the time of their first creation is essential for a mental completion; and if it is too late for a completion for some reason, or a completion is no longer wanted, the allocated resources must get systematically tracked down and then released - an ambitious mental exercise.
„Quiet“ life areas
Last but not least, we have the search for especially „quiet“ areas in life or knowledge. They can get checked systematically by lists, although the e-meter will not be a great help because of the typical energy void - it is more probable that a lack of interest will lead us astray.
Here, the existence of a collapsed virtual space, in this or a previous life, is most probable, especially for people who are generally active and interested. A processor who can bring this logic across to his client and get his interest with that, is a special and very rare treasure.
A grandmother who is very active otherwise, does not take care of her garden? Maybe she had to rush to the hospital directly from her garden, when her child - still young at the time - had an accident, and since then could not do anything against the mental label “I must immediately leave this place”. After all, “immediately” is a day and hour which is valid always and everywhere, even many years after the incident!
Somebody is eagerly interested in all aspects of life, only in history he had bad grades already in school? Here we have good chances to discover a John F. Kennedy or Martin Luther King, who has been torn out of a great political career in his last life and has written history himself. All or nearly all corresponding resources are still buried there, even if the trauma of their violent death has been “handled” in processing a long time ago. These resources are not available in present time.
This structure tells all about the further course of action: tracking down the abandoned virtual spaces alone is not enough! The exact precise nature of the blocked resources must be determined. Half-finished plans, interrupted projects, invested time and energy, and last but not least the lost connections with other people must be made visible for a fresh evaluation in present time. After that, either a proper completion for them must be worked out, which releases the resources, or they must be integrated into new plans, new projects, new or existing virtual spaces in present time - in other words, reanimated.
Another important point is the tracking down of all negative consequences. Who has been harmed by our sudden absence, be it caused by ourselves or others? Who has suffered from broken promises, who was sad, whose life went into a bad direction? Where possible, these people should be contacted in present time, so that the “crashed program” can be cleanly closed at these points of interaction with the programs of other people as well, even if that happens at a much later time. Of course it is also possible that some negative energy becomes visible only now, which has not been available for a session before.
If we have accumulated personal guilt, it can also be necessary to make up to somebody, or to apply any other appropriate ethics step. That removes turbulences which we have caused in the “running programs” of other people, and restores the operating system on the next higher level: not only in our personal inner computer, but also in the network which consists of the “operating systems” of all the people with whom we have been connected then or are still connected now.
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